Saturday, May 8, 2010

Starting Over

Ok, so I'm going to try and get my life strait then, am I?
No more wallowing in pissed of anger?
I've been to a psychiatrist and I was given a perscription for anti - anxiety meds. I guess I'm not severly depressed and mental I just stress so much my blood pressure is a billion/abillion and the stress wears me out to where all I want to do is eat, watch the telly, and hate everything.
I guess with school ending in two weeks I may actually have to do something with my life.
This could be a good thing.
So I deleted the hateful three or four posts I had made on this before and I'm starting over.

Hi, my name is Beth... I'm on generic Guanfacine to help cope with high levels of anxiety, high blood pressure, and insomnia. All at the age of 23... we go mental early these days.

Weight: I don't know prolly over 200 sub 210 I hope...
Height 5'3

By September 21 my 24th birthday - 4 months and 13 days from now I'd like to be down 30 lbs. I know I could do more if I really tried 40 to 50. But I'm told realistic goals are better than setting out to attack the shit out of mt.everest when you can't even walk down the hill by your house without stopping to gasp for air through your fat lined lungs.

23 and graduating college having never had a real college experiance. No huge parties no gaggles of stupid friends to hang out by the pool with, no stupid adventures to find a walmart open 24 hours a day just to dick around, no anything. Where did these so called "best years of my life" go?

Oh right... WoW, McDonTacoBurgerDelInnout, and stress.
I'd like to save my life before I loose it before I'm in my mid twenties.

Who knows maybe i'll actually start to like life.

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